This post is different than my usual. No trip reports, no tips, just a little update to our lives, because it will impact this blog.
Next week, we’re going through a BIG change. It might not seem like a big deal, but as a Mom, it’s HUGE for me. Jackson, our two-year-old, is going to full-time daycare. I’m not sure how I feel about this. I don’t know if my guilt is stronger than my excitement, or vice versa.
If anyone here is a follower of my blog (I’m pretty sure those of you are few and far between :), you’ve probably noticed I’ve been pretty silent this past year (I think I published three blogs?) It’s not because my life has become extremely boring (although we have traveled a lot less), it’s mostly because of the cute, energetic little person very attached to his mom. Before Alaska, my husband worked normal hours so I could use the time when he was home to work on this blog and my photography business. His job in Alaska is extremely different, and he is barely home at night to say “hi” and go to sleep. There’s only so much I can accomplish during his nap, or the time he spends at a babysitter. Since moving here I’ve felt very scattered and my thoughts are always cloudy. I know if I was a more disciplined and organized person I would be able to follow through with more ideas I have, but that’s not me. I barely feed and entertain my child and not want to pull my hair out at the end of the day, and I only have one! He’s at such a fun age right now so I do have fun with him, but I feel like I’m in constant reaction mode, and it’s why I haven’t been able to get my business off the ground here or even think about applying to graduate school (I have GI Bill benefits that will run out soon.)
I am NOT a supermom. I respect so many Moms that can run businesses with their kids around, but that’s not me. So he’s off to daycare this week!
With that, here are some cute pictures of my crazy entertaining little person.
3 Comments
Bev
July 30, 2018 at 7:29 pmOh Kim, I can remember as if it was yesterday, the day I left my second son at the pré-school class in France. I had been at home with him for 3yrs, he cried his eyes out when I left him for a week and I cried my eyes out in the car park … however, the first day he went there I went back to work and I think we all benefitted from me getting back into an adult world. It takes a lot of organisation – my husband was away a lot too, but now when I look at my kids, they are both pretty balanced and autonomous. Little Jackson looks a happy little soul, he’ll be fine, you’ll be fine. It’s a wrench at the beginning but hey, we don’t have kids just to keep them with us always, do we? Looking forward to seeing more if your pics very soon xxx
kimberly.kendall
July 30, 2018 at 8:18 pmThanks so much for writing this!! I know it’ll be fine for Jackson in the long run. He loves playing with other kids, and his childcare provider seems amazing. I saw you and Thierry just went through a big change yourself and hope you’re both doing well. I’ll miss seeing your pictures from China!
Alice Kendall
July 31, 2018 at 1:23 amSuch a cute little grandson!! Alaina and Catherine have really thrived at day care, I know Jackson will love having little friends and it will be good for him, they learn so much and love the socialization.